Saturday, January 30, 2010

The secret N Files

Lately, I often regret that this blog is not anonymous anymore. There’s so much I want to write about, so many things I want to get of my chest. But at the same time, I don’t want everybody to know. So what to do?
For the first time, I'm actually thinking about stopping the blog altogether. It’s not really helping me anymore in anyway.
My mom: is still ill – but who wants to read about cancer, right?
My job: I am still enjoying it, so not much to write about either.
INSEAD : long time ago
P : still the typical consultant, working ridiculous hours
So there, my life in a nutshell.
I have a few wonderful friends who are always there for me, and whom I can trust. And I still feel lonely as hell from time to time. Cause believe me, a dream you can’t share with anyone is nothing more than a real nightmare.

1 comment:

Jill the Duchess said...

Oh N! Please don't quit your blog. I love hearing and reading about what you do. I understand the problem with too many people knowing - you loose the ananoymity and you start getting self-conscious. Inside our heads can be a pretty scary and tumultuous place! I have that same struggle and problem every day. Sometimes I keep the gloomy posts up because, well screw it, why not? And other times I lack the courage or don't want to deal with the fall out, so I write and delete. Whatever you choose, I hope you keep writing!! In fact, I'd love to have you do a guest post on Duchess sometime if you'd be intersted. Love what you do, who you are and can totally understand the lonliness! I was married for 9 years to a journalist who spent 8 to 10 months a year in Pakistan, Iraq and Afghanistan. Life, even married, can be lonely! There are some many people who love you and who get so much from your contribution to our lives - keep writing sister!!

And if you ever feel lonely you just shoot me an email! I think you're wonderful!!

Sending you comfort and friendship N!!